I don't know why but I've been feeling very tired, very dizzy, very out of it since yesterday.
It's not just because I'm sick, I don't think.. It's everythink and nothing at once. It feels just like when I've spent all my energy and focus on a 2k timed race. And there's all this heat trapped under my skin which makes me sleep fitfully cos it's just so darned hot under the covers. And I don't have the appetite for proper food. Rice and fish and broccoli is boring (I'm so sorry mum! But thanks for the grapes..) I have random cravings for potato salad from the Western stall but the uncle is too miserly with the bacon bits.
Nothing feels solid. Nothing feels good. Everything takes flight too readily. And I just wanna bum around and do nothing.


Just let me have the next couple of hours to be myself, then I guess I'm ready to meet work head on.

Dear God, please take over. I'll move back into the passenger seat. I cant fly this plane, I don't know where to land.


Let it go
Daisy, let it go
Open up your fist
This fallen world
It doesn't hold your interest
It doesn't hold your soul
Daisy, let it go